Dreams are a bitch man
I had a really weird dream last night. I was having my engagement party (News to me) and someone from my past tried to show up and explain themselves and why they treated me the way they did. I laughed in their face. It was very very rude of me, but I had no interest in hearing any explanation.I woke up with a mixed bag of feelings. Part of me definitely missed this person. Part of me was upset that they had the nerve to do this at my dream engagement party. I was just all over the place. After speaking with one of my coworkers I had a breakthrough. I used to feel like I needed to change my life for others.
WHY!?!?!?! Why should others opinions or feelings change MY life trajectory? I used to feel I needed to lose weight and get in shape for a girl. Now I want to be healthy for myself! Since June I have gone from 252 lbs and swollen looking down to 222 lbs and just a little chunky. I have been eating right and working out because I want to live a long healthy life. I used to think if I was sweet enough any girl would jump at the opportunity to be with me, now I am just a genuinely nice person. One thing I always worry about is being to nice of a person and having people assume I have ulterior motives because they aren't used to someone who's real. I'm not going to be less kind and less thoughtful because of that though, I am going to keep being the amazing person I know I can be. I went to college because my parents told me I should and I didn't want to let them down. Now I am preparing for the LSAT in an attempt to go to law school, and that is because I WANT TO. I have decided to change my life for MYSELF.
That dream just highlighted how much my life has changed. It highlighted how the people I have surrounded myself with have changed. All of my close friends support my growth, they don't force me to change to fit their idea of a perfect person, they let me be me. I love where my life has taken me. I love the people God has handpicked to be in my life. I love the person I am becoming.
We are each individually spectacular. We should never feel that our value is based on anything but our own opinions of yourselves. We should want to grow as people for ourselves, we should want to grow for our own life goals, we should want to grow to be the best version of ourselves, a version we can truly be proud of. Im sure some of you think that it is unattainable or that the world is such a cruel place that you will never be happy, I am just here to tell you that that is not the case. One thing that makes us so spectacular is that each of us have the ability to be happy within our own hearts. We can do this!!!
I love you all
Remember, dreams are a bitch, but sometimes they remind us of how far we have come and how much further we can go!
Chris, The Heir of Slytherin
Thursday, September 21, 2017
Thursday, September 7, 2017
My Hero (happy birthday dad)
I thank God everyday for blessing me with the family that I have. My father's birthday was earlier this week but he was out of town so today is the day I'm celebrating his birthday with him. That being said I wanted to let you all know how important my dad is in my life and how thankful I am to have a father like him.
My dad is my best friend. Growing up my father always coached my sports teams. I know the last thing he wanted to spend his spare time on was coaching a bunch of rugrats in baseball and football. He did it though, because he knew that those were moments I would cherish forever. My dad always treated me like my teammates, some didn't even know he was my dad. He thought it was the only way to be fair and impartial. He made me earn my playing time like everyone else. My dad showed me at a very young age how important it was to be a man of high character.
Since I was a wee little lad, my father has always taken me to sporting events. We have been to the Stanley Cup, the World Series, Bucs Games, Eagles Games, WWF Smackdown (yeah WWF). My dad has always been the father that all of my friends wish they were blessed with. When I look back at most of my favorite memories in my life there is one constant, my father, my best friend, right there by my side.
I have never met another man with my fathers work ethic. I have never met another man who cares about his family the way my father does. No matter the sacrifice, my father would make it a million times over to make me, my brother, or my sister happy.
My father served his country proudly for 20 years. He worked two jobs to put food on the table for my family. My dad has always gone the extra mile for his family, friends, and country. Although at times he is short tempered (wonder if that's where I get it from haha) I have never met a man with the heart that my father has. He constantly goes above and beyond the call of duty in all aspects of his life
Speaking of call of duty, I haven't even mentioned my fathers alter ego GrillMaster62. My father plays battlefield and call of duty with me and my friends on xbox live. He actually enjoys it now, but the only reason my father would play video games was because he knew how much I enjoyed it. My father has a funny way of making everyone feel loved by the little things he does. Far too often people overlook the little things. Im pretty sure even he overlooks all of the little things he has done for me.
My father taught me how to work hard and play harder. My father taught me to love with my whole heart. My father taught me how to be a man of God while being a man for the people. My father is the most special individual I have ever met. I am blessed to call my father my best friend and truly mean it. I love you so damn much pops, I am doing everything I can to make you proud.
Your son,
Christopher
My dad is my best friend. Growing up my father always coached my sports teams. I know the last thing he wanted to spend his spare time on was coaching a bunch of rugrats in baseball and football. He did it though, because he knew that those were moments I would cherish forever. My dad always treated me like my teammates, some didn't even know he was my dad. He thought it was the only way to be fair and impartial. He made me earn my playing time like everyone else. My dad showed me at a very young age how important it was to be a man of high character.
Since I was a wee little lad, my father has always taken me to sporting events. We have been to the Stanley Cup, the World Series, Bucs Games, Eagles Games, WWF Smackdown (yeah WWF). My dad has always been the father that all of my friends wish they were blessed with. When I look back at most of my favorite memories in my life there is one constant, my father, my best friend, right there by my side.
I have never met another man with my fathers work ethic. I have never met another man who cares about his family the way my father does. No matter the sacrifice, my father would make it a million times over to make me, my brother, or my sister happy.
My father served his country proudly for 20 years. He worked two jobs to put food on the table for my family. My dad has always gone the extra mile for his family, friends, and country. Although at times he is short tempered (wonder if that's where I get it from haha) I have never met a man with the heart that my father has. He constantly goes above and beyond the call of duty in all aspects of his life
Speaking of call of duty, I haven't even mentioned my fathers alter ego GrillMaster62. My father plays battlefield and call of duty with me and my friends on xbox live. He actually enjoys it now, but the only reason my father would play video games was because he knew how much I enjoyed it. My father has a funny way of making everyone feel loved by the little things he does. Far too often people overlook the little things. Im pretty sure even he overlooks all of the little things he has done for me.
My father taught me how to work hard and play harder. My father taught me to love with my whole heart. My father taught me how to be a man of God while being a man for the people. My father is the most special individual I have ever met. I am blessed to call my father my best friend and truly mean it. I love you so damn much pops, I am doing everything I can to make you proud.
Your son,
Christopher
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