First things first , special thanks to my buddy Colby Cowan for the title. It's just so fitting in my life right now I had to use it. Today went very very well. My body is starting to adjust to the healthier food (paleo) and I was hungry all damn day. What was great is that I kept snacks on deck! London broil, blueberries, strawberries , spinach and chicken salad, pumpkin seeds and for dinner I had some bufallo chicken salad. So the eating clean goal for the day was a success! The random act was more of random acts. I've just focused on being curtious and thoughtful for everyone around me and I think thats even better! I'm sore as shit from yesterday's workout but I still hit the gym with monte for leg day . After eventually crawling to my car I went home and took a nice relaxing bath. Now I'm sitting in the man cave smoking a cigar. Life is good. This shit isn't easy, so
Many times throughout the day I was tempered to cheat. Not even on my diet , but I'm my quest to be come a better person . We were doing role plays on the phone and I could have mailed it in and just went through the motions but I really tried to make sure I used it to improve . People piss me off and there are times where I want to be rude and I just think about how hard I'm working for my life to change and I decide to not unleash my wrath.
I haven't been writing my book, but I've taken this blog as my new passion. I want this blog to not just be something that holds me accountable but something that can help each and everyone of my readers grow as a person along with me . I want this to be our journey! With that being said I have mentioned in my blogs that I would be taking requests for topics . Today I had a good friend of mine who I haven't talked to in awhile message me on Facebook. She I asked how I was able to move on from my downfalls, school, heartbreak ,falling outs etc. so here we go
Question: How does one simply move on from their past.
Answer: You don't move on....
Yep
That's right
You grow out of it....
Fair warning what I am about to explain is a process. It cannot be done overnight. It cannot be taken lightly . It will not be easy. There will be ups. There will be downs . Tears, yes even for you hard asses out there , there will be tears. The first step is acknowledging that was happened has happened and all we can do is adjust to the outcome. In a vacuum given the choice would you rather hold onto your pain and let it weigh you down or would you rather transform that pain that regret that sadness into something beautiful ? The answer when clear headed is simple , you would choose the latter . So why is it when we are in our darkest hours we seem to always want to hold that pain but when we are happy we act as though we will never lose that feeling? Why are we more protective of our pain then we are of our happiness?
Easiest example: I've had my heart broken a few times . Some hurt more than others . The ones that hurt , damn did they hurt . I didn't want anything to do with anyone (but of course) I wanted people around). I wanted their pity , their sympathy , I wanted their love regardless of the cost . That cost came at being a shell of my once very pleasant self. I lost friends because they were tired of having to drag me around . I've worried family just because when they would talk to me I'd be sad. I held that pain. After the breakup I felt the pain was all I had left of her.
Why have I never held onto anything in my life as tight as I did that pain I will never know. But one day I made a promise to myself , that I would start holding my happiness the way I held the pain and verse vica. I decided instead of being a college graduate working at dominos I was going to find a real job. I got my insurance license , I got a pretty good job, things were going well. I still wasn't where I wanted to be. I needed to not just release the pain but use it as an engine of beauty . I started writing much more . I spent extra time going over my insurance notes , and now I have started to change my health . I made a conscious decision to change my life . To take all of the pain and unhappiness I had and instead of it creating a monster nobody wanted to be around I have began to sculpt it into the most beautiful masterpiece.
So what I'm saying is focus on being the best you. If your boyfriend breaks up with you cool, spend your extra time doing one of your hobbies , find a group of friends to go do random things with like art museums followed by go karts. You really want to be happy right? So just do it then, stop letting that pain and sadness turn you into a piece of shit nobody wants to be around ! Now look before y'all jump at me... I get it people need time to collect themselves . It took me 7 years lmfaoooo but my advice , 2 weeks. That's all you need. After two weeks you've thought about every scenario in the world . You are awesome so thus you have awesome friends , they will give you the two week grace period. We all get it , it's shitty to be in emotional pain ( I've dealt with depression throughout my life) but we can't live like that. That shits not living fam.
Let's not hold onto pain anymore , let's use it as a tool to craft the masterpiece of all masterpieces.... ourselves
Love y'all,
The heir of slytherin , Chris
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